Omigod I cannot believe I am posting this!!!!!

I weight 268 lbs. I just got on the scale in my bathroom and that's what it said. It's really hard for me to post my actual weight. For years, I haven't told anybody my weight or my actual size, because I am embarrassed and ashamed. I guess I have been hopeful that people would guess me at a smaller weight if they didn't know the truth. I am going to try to let go of this lie. No more convincing myself that this number on the scale is some secret private thing that I have to live with in secret. The funny thing is that it has never really been secret. You can look at me and tell.